Exciting News...

I am so excited to finally be a mom, I am now 8 weeks pregnant. We were able to go to our first prenatal visit last week and see the strong heartbeat as a little flicker of light on the screen of the ultrasound. The baby doesn't look like much right now but oh boy am I feeling his presence--wow, I have been soooo sick and it shocks me how it continues to get worse. I didn't really think much about pregnancy being so hard, mostly just labor and then sleep deprivation once the baby is here. This is more than I would have ever bargained for and I have only begun. I know it will be worth it and I am so excited to be participating in an eternal work to be a mother in Zion.

I feel like an alien has taken over my body because I literally am not myself. I don't have an appetite for anything, especially sweets (which is the opposite of how I usually am), it is a chore just to eat. I have not had any really cravings yet, just food aversions to everything! The weird thing is that I am not tired at all, if anything I have trouble sleeping. I find myself waking up at 5:30 in the morning and not being tired at all and then going all day and never getting tired. I am not saying this to brag, it actually is weirding me out. I think I would rather be tired than feel like I have the flu all day everyday and never know if I am going to have to throw up in the middle of one of my coaching calls at work. I am preparing and reading lots of books and also have decided to not eat desserts for my whole preganancy and instead focus on nutrient dense foods. I also plan to exercise my whole pregnancy and am already preparing myself to have a natural birth. This may sound crazy but I actually practice doing squat holds and when the pain in my muscles gets the strongest I will pretend I am in labor having a contraction and practice focusing on something else and breathing to get through it--I figure pain is pain, right?

Dan is very excited too and he is working very hard to get things in place with his business so that I can be a stay at home mom. He also takes care of me when I am really really sick and barfing all day, I told him I wish I could just let him take over for one day so I can get a break from the nausea (I am sure if that were possible he would do it).